The Road Not Taken
Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim
Because it was grassy and wanted wear,
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I marked the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way
I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I,
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.
This has always been one of my favorite poems and I’m come to feel that it sums up my life pretty well. I feel that in my battle against my fibro I have taken the Road Less Traveled By, as Robert Frost writes. I feel that if most (if not all) of the people I know were put in my shoes — not that I wish this pain on anyone!! — they would take the more traveled road. They would give up, crawl into bed, and never get back out. They would not be working a job. They would not run errands, go to the movies, or leave their house. They’d give up, give in. I refuse to give into the pain. I refuse to let the pain win. Losing gives the pain control of my life. I’ve tried that. It sucks. It’s no way to live. If the pain wins, you have no quality of life. Your life is pain. So I’m taking the Road Less Traveled By and searching for a life with the pain, around the pain. I’m looking for ways to live and enjoy life despite my fibro. I’m constantly searching for more weapons to add to my arsenal in the daily war I wage against my pain. A war with no end in sight, but a war where I will not accept defeat. Defeat is an unthinkable thing. So I work on myself, I look for new hobbies that are both fun and help ease the pain, I meditate, I do tons of yoga, I write, I lose myself in a good book/movie/TV show, etc. My weapons range from the simple to the surprising. Anything that helps ease the pain is a great thing in my book.